Striving.

What am I striving for - a peace to move along with what God has placed in our path. Today was one of those days when life in one room was not fun. As I was washing dishes Emma looked at me and said, "Mom, where is yours and dads room?" I turned around and pointed at our bed and just had to laugh - she said, "Oh, in the kitchen?" Yes dear - in the kitchen. I love that kids can bring laughter to everything, even tense moments in my life.

I just sat down to read a little and stumbled across Ps 37.3 - "Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart" and verse 7 - "Be still before the Lord, and wait patiently for him."

The last week we have spent looking at rent places near here (which are not many) and trying to decide if we go ahead and pay for rent, and a new house mortgage at the same time. All in attempts to get into a house and get reopened as a foster home so that we can start taking kids again. It is a desire, a calling, but is it wise to do now... we have been struggling with that decision for a while. Obviously God knows what he is doing. He knows that we are licensed and ready to receive kids, we just need a home, he knows that it is hard to live in one room, He knows it is lonely living in a new place and trying to meet new people, He knows, He knows.

So - all that to say, it is hard to go against your own desires, but it is so good to just give them up and "be still". So for now thats what we are doing. We are going to be still, let God do the work that He started, and sit back in anticipation for what he has for this family. What a weight off my shoulders...

Thanks for letting me share my heart - perhaps this spoke to one of you and our desire to make things happen, I know that is me and it is just a good reminder that He will do it far better then I could have ever even imagined.